arghhhh!! i have this panic attack. its almost the end of the semester, and i know i am not that much prepared for the exam. not a lot that have been taught this semester, but i dont get everything covered yet. so, freaking out is the option i have now.

when i freak out, i tend to take some time away from it, and this cant be the most useful method since i have limited time to solve it. ah depression! i know there are other people who are not prepared as well, but i cant be one of them. selfish bitch, i know i am! kiasu. call me them all, i dont care anymore.

i am so not going anywhere during xmas, let's just hibernate and freeze and unify with notes and books at home. that might help. gosh, i am so panic!!!

Time flies so fast eh?
its already week10/12 of this semester, and i havent start that much of revision yet. i gotta start soon or else i wouldnt have much time to prepare.

i guess i work better alone, or work around better people, in terms of their work ethics and motivation. i am kinda a person who can easily motivated, and demotivated as well. so, i was self-motivated earlier this semester, and then when i get to know people, putting my study a bit to the side, and here i am, abandoning my study. but, the knowing-people part hasnt been bad after all, at least i can say i have 'life' to some extent. life or not, my life for this few weeks should be revolving around books, notes, lectures.

things havent gotten worse i suppose. i am now becoming more comfortable accommodating this place, we are done with decorating and out flat looks like a proper bachelor pad.getting used to the gym and swimming that we have, and getting more accustomed to the routine. who knows the pool can be a place more than for swimming? rendezvous perhaps?